I'm going to take some time today to talk about commitment phobes....

eff everyone that says it will be easy if you meet the right one. srsly. everytime i have to fight every single inch of my body not to push and run away screaming in another direction and i have to take a deep breath to calm down and tell myself that yes this is okay.. it's okay for me to have this.. to do this... and after maybe 5-15 mins then my body relaxes and accepts it... some days, i'm ok.. i speak about the future, i speak about us.. other days i'm not.. i evade and dodge and phrase things in a subtlely non-commital way that I know is not so subtle... I won't deny that I see us in the future... but at the same time I dun see anything more than what is now as there is something blocking the way... sighs