er hello? lol
ok life has been fairly stale for me.. home tuition eat study comp dong bang sleep sometimes run... repeat routine times 500. *yawns* need to say more? lol chem tuition has been making me feel extremely underprepared and lost.. which stinks but also remind me that i need to hurry up and study. hence forth i'll be off after blogging...
well, I have taught myself to read the hangul well kinda anyways.. haha thanks to emily's alphabets and the internet... but i take 5 mins to read a word and I don't understand what I'm reading which defeats the purpose but o wells one step at a time. Thanks to bigeast station, I realise that i can still remember like some japanese and understand a bit though i have to like repeat 5 times to process... ah.. eventually I'll get there... so aside from my l337 reading skills, how 4b+ my 5+udy 5k1llz? (i lost 3/4 of my 1337 typing skills as well from the looks of it.. hmmm)

Let's see, I barely completed the first big chpt for bio (there are 9),5/19 chpt for chem, 5/18 chpt for math, and thanks to simon i covered/ read thru pretty much evertything for econs now left to actually memorize and attempt timed questions. 125 more days to go?? damn
so that said, I have to submit 2 econs questions and 1 gp essay to simon before wednesday. and do my chem homework and attempt to understand before saturday. cuz saturday i'll be out at kass' the whole day hopefully :D
Kass is coming back at midnight today!!!!
WELCOME HOME BABY!!!
I predict severe jetlag for the next few days!!!!(I know i suffer from terrible jetlag when i travel but some pple dun?? o wells) BUt not to worry at 1.20am every weekday, kbs world (chn 173) shows You're my destiny. Star goldenbell challenge is on every sunday 1t 12.40am. that is if you wanna watch tv though you probably caught everything online... haha but o wells for your reference. hehe. let's go kbox someday k? I'm dying.. the last time i went was with you and emi.. before pahang.. rah... cya soon in Sg babe :D can't wait.

Today's a good day. well minus the fact that i freaked out over ding not replying and all... LOL. Sorry sherman!
Had lunch with the group. I was late for a while, nic was late for 40 minutes( that's something new, he's usually an hour early LOL). Met up with nats and headed over to MOS burger. then ding the idiot finally called. lol.
After lunch, we went to check movie timings, but it was all too late for me.. sucks to go out with me....
so we headed to civic centre's mac cafe for more sitdown and talk nonsense sessions. We didn't do anything in particular actually just sat down and talked and amused people with our charades... LOL Don't sound particularly exciting but I really enjoyed myself. haha. we are such a bunch of weirdos. but seriously, i missed hanging out with them..
Damn! We need to meet more often than once every 6 months you guys!!!
With the group, there's no stress. plenty of goodnatured jibbing and ridiculous talks.. doing gundam *LOL*... It's a comfortable place to be in.. feels like home... feels nice to be one of the guys once in a while. :D haha
but at the same time, a small little fear came in... a little fear that all this might change one day.. and we would lose the connection.
yea I know i worry way too much... the group will still be the group no matter what. and for that I am thankful.
haha. just couldn't resist ending off on a emo note. :D

but all in all I had fun today!! and we should do this more often :D
when my A's are over, we should go pub hopping ok?? :D

"Who's that?" She asked cheekily after stealing a glance at his phone.
He didn't say anything and just smiled.
" Your girlfriend?" she persisted, even though she already knew the answer.
"Yea"
"She's pretty." she said with a smile.
"Yea.. She is." he bowed his head and smiled sweetly at the picture on his phone.
Though the answer was expected, the expression was not.
His coyness caught her off-guard...
She had never seen him so.. so.. blissful before.
His joy and happiness was all too obvious though he was subtle about it.
She grinned widely as he looked at her face for her blessing.
She showed her approval and happiness for his joy, but on the inside, she was breaking apart.
It was not that she's not happy that he's happy...
but she was unfamiliar... unfamiliar with him.
She was so used to being at the side and comforting him after everytime he failed...
but he doesn't need her anymore. He succeeded this time... and that position is no longer needed.
It's like a wall that suddenly cut thier emotional bridge. an invisible wall...
She was dependent on him... but he never knew...
to him, she's like one of the boys, like brothers...
but to her, he was her emotional stronghold. He held her together whenever her life breaks into pieces... He was always there for her... and so was she for him.
In an odd sort of sense, she needed to be needed by him.
But he's no longer hers... He's someone else's now.
No more can she call him up in the middle of the night and rant.
No more can she spill her guts out and go to him whenever she needs to.
No more...
Because It would be wrong...
And so the wall went up...
And he didn't even notice.
Didn't notice the subtle distancing of her hand from his...
Didn't notice the abyss of sadness behind her eyes
Didn't notice anything as she gave him the final embrace.
She turned and walked away....


Alone once again.

This week has been a good week for me yesyes... me and pet seems to be on the seesaw again w/o us realising it? Sorry friend! I'll cut our connection the next time ok? :D

Firstly, is of course that dream concert has finally finished, though I still haven't watched any videos yet (cuz the fan wars were turning me off) the influx of dong bang news made me happy :D and of course this old jaejoong forum that kass fount for me that are filled with jae's pervs (like me LOL XD). speaking of which i haven't even made it past page 8 of that forum yet.. too many photos *swoon* speaking of DBSK, Serena's going to stay off for a while and limit myself. LOL

Secondly, I passed my BT!!! YES!!! I know.. it's just BT which nobody should/can fail but I did... the first time anyways... LOl... then I booked my ft and driving lessons which will start on 28/7/08. :D but that means I have a hole in my bank acct. GRRRRR.... Serena's going to be a kiam siap queen for the next few months... or anti-social MIA hermit crab... which ever is cheaper. LOL

Thirdly, I met up with Angie and Jes yesterday for dinner :D we talked for around 4 hours non-stop and we still haven't finished covering what we wanted to.. grrr this is caused by almost a whole year of not meeting up. roar... but it was a good day.. Through them I realised that there are still good boys around. So girls, Let's not despair!!! He's out there somewhere! haha. After being around happy people who are happily in love despite thier problems helped patched my bubble together :D and I'm back to my original conclusion that about love and trust and strength and sex and everything else. :D

Of course, not to forget, i watched KFP last weekend with the rest :D it was a good day out yes yes :D

to my YFBs (yes I insist on calling all of us young fabulous and broke XD haha), we are far too emo for our own good yes yes? I realise all of us are. LOL. But it's ok, we will always be there for each other so we will be able to pull through :D Alicia told me last night that she hoped all of us will be happy when we grow older. I told her, i know we will be because we will always have each other. :D so yes friends let's be happy ok? let's build our happy bubble back together again :D LOVE LOVE