listening to emo songs is making me tap into unnecessary emotions... and it's making me realise i dun want the 10 years to end... not now... 10 years...
so to keep 10 years, i must continue fighting with myself.... to not let overthinking kill me... or what we have...
so we are doing things a little differently... so our focus now is highly differently from others.. so we are different.. so what?
i will fight to make you my priority... for those who say that it shld come naturally well eff tt... if it doesn't come naturally, i will put in twice the effort to make sure it happpens. My life was packed before.. and even more so now.. and the thing is, of all them are priorities... my school, my family, AFT, uni friends jc friends and now something new... i refuse to give up either one of them and I know that You have never requested me to do that but I feel like I have been rescheduling you to fit others... and you shldn't just be an option to me. You have never asked anything of me.. it's always been what i want.. whether I wanna meet you, whether I wanna eat here, whether I want you to pick me up.... and all the things, all the small things u have asked me to do, I haven't been able to do so. It should be balanced. even if you dun mind, even if you laugh at me for being silly...
I really have night dumbness... I tell you everything. things that shld be said, even worse, I tell you things that shouldn't be said... I can't play games with you. i will only lose myself in it... always have been the case... can there be a limit for being too honest?

one week, 24 days and 10years... such arbitrary numbers with so much meanings.... I guess my last year's new year resolution kinda came true?? so shocking.... so unexpected yet it had been a long time coming.. a mass of contradictions but yet so right at the same time...
and yes i shld stop thinking because... well logic can never solve this shit and pointing out logical fallacies is non-applicable here. I know for sure I won't be able to tear away.. not now... so I shld just stick with it. If it makes me happy, if it fills my void.. if it stops the late night screamings.... then it must be good right? surely it must be.

moilheiv yes for now i do

tick tock tick tock tick tock. a bit outta my laegue, a bit heartless but i rather it be pure FOB than a real thing.... No emotions involved = no heartbreak= no pain

He's the boy your mom warned you against. The bad boy type. The one who smokes and drinks and drives like a maniac. He fights and he curses and he loves with a passion. The stereotypical type. And I may be the one to actually break his heart..... but i will die if i do so...

Undeniable attraction
love, lust or affection?
a dance, a kiss, a friendly little frisk
a perfect recipe for disaster indeed