listening to emo songs is making me tap into unnecessary emotions... and it's making me realise i dun want the 10 years to end... not now... 10 years...
so to keep 10 years, i must continue fighting with myself.... to not let overthinking kill me... or what we have...
so we are doing things a little differently... so our focus now is highly differently from others.. so we are different.. so what?
i will fight to make you my priority... for those who say that it shld come naturally well eff tt... if it doesn't come naturally, i will put in twice the effort to make sure it happpens. My life was packed before.. and even more so now.. and the thing is, of all them are priorities... my school, my family, AFT, uni friends jc friends and now something new... i refuse to give up either one of them and I know that You have never requested me to do that but I feel like I have been rescheduling you to fit others... and you shldn't just be an option to me. You have never asked anything of me.. it's always been what i want.. whether I wanna meet you, whether I wanna eat here, whether I want you to pick me up.... and all the things, all the small things u have asked me to do, I haven't been able to do so. It should be balanced. even if you dun mind, even if you laugh at me for being silly...
I really have night dumbness... I tell you everything. things that shld be said, even worse, I tell you things that shouldn't be said... I can't play games with you. i will only lose myself in it... always have been the case... can there be a limit for being too honest?