The worst thing somebody can do with your heart when you give it away is to tear it into a million pieces, trod on it and never give you back your heart whole... but what they can never do is break your spirit.. not unless you let them anyways.

they always say you can never control how a person feels about you but you can control how they make you feel.

Insecurities, fear, loss, they stifle everything. What you are most afraid of will always come true as a result of your actions. The more you fear, the more you are unwilling to give the more things u do due to your insecurities, the more likely your heart will be broken. Sometimes, you grip too tightly for fear of losing something when you let go... then you realise you end up stifling and killing the one thing you didn't want to lose. So what can you do? quite frankly... nothing.. there's nothing you can do. sometimes you can be the most perfect and understanding person but... your not his or her perfect. or your perfectness ends up burdening the other party. Sometimes, you fit everything they are looking for.. but their eyes never land on you no matter how hard you try to get their attention. What can you do? nothing... That's how humans are... So enpowered yet so helpless, so blessed with the power of logic yet so illogical at the same time.

so what to do? 2 paths... so very clear cut but both equally hard to take. Confess and try everything within your means and pray... or hide it... and live with the pain and pray that maybe eventually after they wake up they will really see you.

of course how can i forget the last path... which is never give you heart away again. the sadest option because if you do so... you will never be able to even make a single real friendship in your life.

what would your choice be?