unneccesary...politics is being stirred... me dislikes !!! (fb shld srsly consider putting this option. that will be AWESOME)... but I'm amazed at the maturity of some people. They really give me hope. really. me is no comments on bad stuff.. LADIDADIDA. BE GONE NEGATIVITY!

to my bestest friend. like i said before.. you can do so so much better. on the upside... no more veggie only diet!!!! and we all know a man cannot be deprived of his meat. :)

To my other awesome best friend,
CONGRATS ON being no longer a METAL MOUTH!!!!! WOOTS WOOTS. Please don't die from overwork before we next meet up again. *worries*

To my other other awesome best friend,
SCREW THAT ASShole.... :) if you need me to spew venom at him furthermore I will gladly be of service.

To my also equally splendid best friend in far away land of the free,
your fav. season is coming soon. do bundle up tight and take care <3 you and can't wait for you tto be back. really :(

To my best friend whom i see almost everyday til i think we are both so sick of each other's faces...
STOP sleeping at ungodly timing!!! and.... and... I see you too often to think of anything special to say that i haven't said b4... >.<

To the last but not def. not least best friend who is musically inclined and am totally awesome at everything else at well.
i dunno how to put things into words very well.. but if you ever need a listening ear or just some company.. I'm never too far away. .but i shall respect you and not bug you if u're not ready to say anything. but i LUBS you MUCHuos!


so people remember! It's all about the Ooumph!!!!

and i think I have just busted the scales of insanity.

Philo is halfway/1/3 way done.... I just need to sit down and type more of my shit down....
Need to concentrate thought.. internet is evil evil evil... :(

and to my brother... you probably won't read this but throw whatever you have at me. throw every crazy angst filled idea at me. I can take them. cuz... They ran through me once too. but then again I'm not you.. I won't pretend that we are going through the same shit. But I can offer a fresh perspective on what seems like an issue sealed dead shut...

OMGOMGOMG!!! today someone i didn't know * or thought i didn't know added me on fb... he added all the AI people so i assumed he was from ai so i added him.. took me a while to recognize him.. but.. omg he's TITUS!!! like THE TITUS FROM FFX whom i totally eyecandied in school but never knew his name... COOL shit! i <3 fb to the max...

so last night was my exciting escapade from my house and buying beer and getting caugt and getting involved in an hour plus lecture and losing my dad's trust completely...
wow... what a rebel.... in a way i regretted it.. but i'm not complaining cuz i pretty much asked for it. so i will jsut suck it up etc.. details of the lecture... I'm not interested to reveal.... not to anybody.. cept he brought up my cousins... suicides... murder.. drugs.. and a whole load of other stuff.. and o of course his self guilt which amplified mine.
so yes... that was last night.... it was good while it lasted though.. sitting down there with yoga and with natahan on the speakerphone.. laughing about shit.. and god knows what. enjoying a weird kinda view... then talking a bit to saras prabs ganesh and colin... it was good while it lasted....
It may not be worth it...



but i needed that beer last night...

I like this one. something simple and plain yet nice. :) better than my old one where the picture doesn't appear 3/4 of the time.

Recess week has finally begun. wasted 1 day today.. but starting tml I will mug hard.. sadly.. but cuz i have 1 paper to hand in next week and 3 tests and also a paper due in oct.

This coming saturday is Movie marathon and BGM... so it's half my event.. haven't held an event in sometime now. ticket sales were dismal today... but nonetheless i'm psyched about the event

Here's the awesome poster that Henry designed:


o and... I'm apparently going to sing at the event with henry.. so if you wanna see me make a fool out of myself, you can pay 3 bucks :)

Hmm.. my life has been pretty normal after i ended my sleep study thingy.. been sleeping at god forsaken timings again. But the 100 bucks was good. it's saving my ass now as we speak. This month has been expensive... half the month has barely gone by and my bank account has been cleaned out.

Aft is having many many projects to come... so keep your eyes peeled and pray that all of us are able to time manage properly.. god knows how that will turn out.
ladida~ off to continue my critique....

*emo bug*
and i can't find anythign for js research. KNNCCB. and... and... and...

somebody to soothe her irrationality and fears away....

funny questions..... zzz... tendency to overthink.... :(

been skipping school... not a good thing to be addicted to. will go to school properly from now on.... but these 2 days have been good. I think I needed the time out. and spending time with saras and prabs is always good.

hello ... you.... It's been a couple of months... I'm not quite sure what to do with you now... I know why you came though... your visits surprise me no longer... I wish I can embrace you like a familiar friend.. but I can't..
everything is too plausible... and too dark to contemplate... A sense of helplessness.. you stiffen the air around me... so much so that it becomes a choke hold.
It would be so easy to slip.. to slip back to you and let everything else drown itself out. but I won't.. I can't.. for i may lose.. and i can't afford to lose to you.. definitely not to you of all things.
You're darting along the outskirts of my mind now. eager to break me down. eager to find a way in. but I will run from you. and maybe oneday..
I may even overcome and kill you...

Hello my bittersweet friend... welcome to step out of my life.

goodbye 500 ml of blood. I will regenerate you in 2 days time :) I hate me small veins.. It's totally causing me bruising and slow blood flow. grr...

3 days in a row. Serena is happy happy happy. :) plus saw amira today :) :) and also had lunch with sengkiat and dinner with my laj classmates :) who are all really nice and funny. hehe.

JS project consultation tml. my groupmates are nice but they scare me. zzz. ts lecture tml. i hope i don't sleep again. And I need to stop forgetting my tut. timings.

I've noticed a change in me.. I don't know if anyone else noticed... but I'm losing my insecurities. It surfaces sometimes in the form of my inadequacies and in my fear of the future. but.. I'm happy and comfortable to be in my own skin. I don't know when this happened. I don't know how this happened. But I'm glad to be finally contented to be me. Sure there's a lot of me that needs to be worked on. But i'm not worrying. not too much anyways. I think I can handle being alone with myself now. :)