been bloghopping for a while... reading random stuff.. makes me realise..
I f**king hate growing up... I hate it. but I can't avoid it. so I just have to take it.
But then maybe I'm just being plain angsty because I look at some of my friends and I'm so proud of them and so happy for them. then I look at myself hiding in a denial hole. plain effing sad.
nvm.. shall leave my random angst alone now before it develops into something more.

Anyways, I finally got a bit of studying done this week. but it's really very little... shit... nvm
was studying with pet today. quite fun haha. studying with emi was fun too. been damn long since i last saw emi and nat.
Saw alex, hannah krystal at tuition on wed, hahaha.

Been obsessively fangirling over DBSK recently. especially with Kass. HAHA our fangirling cannot be bounded by continents and time differences. LOL. I <3 kim jaejoong load loads.. lol ok random fangirl comment. haha

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who is she really he seems to have lost her own battle with himself. After everything... she is still that very same person on that drawing block. still him... Was it that she didn't try hard enough? or was it that he never really put herself in front? never really used her heart and soul and everything was a pretense on a certain level. Is that why she cannot ever give? not to a hundred person without expecting something else. So many facades some of them aren't even properly sculpted. slipshod work.. gooey mess.. but at the end of it. who is he. which one of the funny masks that she adorn is him? or is there nothing but self centred sympathy? Did she even change? or is he bound and doomed from the start crippled by plain selfishness and plain fucking laziness. words... evokes emotions... truth is arbitary.... what is good what is bad what is right what is wrong? or maybe once again a self centred call for sympathy. Gone is the hardness that toughens him. gone is that ability to swallow everything and smile. gone... who is she who is he who am i who are them we dunno... really don't.

kk random LOL!