is such a funny thing. You seek it but you might not always get it all the time. especially in relationships... BUT when you least expect it, Fate comes slapping you about the face with things from your past bugging you to close the chapter. O the irony...

She found closure in knowing that she outgrew him. She found closure in being best friends. She found closure in knowing what a jerk he was. She found closure in talking things out. he found closure in avoidance. he found closure in another relationship. He found closure in having a proper breakup a year after the first. He He She She Me Me We We... same same but different. What do we seek and where do we end up? relentless pursuit bides exhaustion. never chasing bides depression and helplessness. what do we ultimately seek?

All the world's a stage and we are its players.

WAS FANTASTIC!!!!! it tired me out tremendously but everything was good!!! kudos to saras and all the people who were there, particulary to the volunteers and arch and also Jin yao for whom i cannot be grateful enough to.
Those past few days were extremely tiring, but it reminded me again of why i loved Yec, my original spark. It makes you feel alive, like you have a sense of purpose. Heck even shopping alone for prizes didn't manage to kill my mood. Funnily enough, I love working til I wanna die, until I'm so tired that I cannot think and I whine and whine, rushing until my feet are falling off. i love it. I think I would be a workaholic if not for the fact that I'm so darn lazy. I thikn being around hardworking people inspires me. Like when ever I see people who are working harder than me not yet resting when I'm taking my break. I feel inspired to get up and work harder. If they can do it, why can't I? I'm not as tired as them, so how can I be taking a break? And the absolute euphoria after the event is over. The sheer tiredness makes you feel complete. My spark came back.
But then again.. i cannot ignore all the other cons which made me lose my spark. the people, the red tape, the fear and worry the constant worry over funding and contacts and the inability to make up for it. things that rip you up from within.
Henceforth, I conclude i'm not a very good leader but i'll make a really good assistant. It's a bit unambitious, but thinking about it, I don't have the determination and the decisiveness to lead people. I hate to be bound by obligations and the minute you use the obligation technique on me, I'll run and rebel. But I'm good at doing what others tell me to do and brainstorm from there becasue I dun wanna let people down. so ya... ahh wrapped up issues...

I 've been having guilt trips and panic attacks about not studying... shit, my alarm signals are in defensive mode and screaming run run you can't do it.... I'm a optimistic pessimist who is also a constant worrier.. shit shit. but rah. this week is my last week at work already. after which I have NO MORE EXCUSES to skive off again. *scared*
sigh..
ok ok, this are my updates for the past few weeks. O by the way, I repaired the links. so they are no longer faulty. if you guys want me to include your link just leave ur addy in my tag. then I'll add on.

<3,
Serena
p.s : counting down to July. KASS, when you come back you must leave at least 1 whole saturday free for us ok?? i don't care you must you must!

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I just finished my workout wahahah! Can you believe it? me? workout?? Do not be fooled ladies and gentlemen YES! I just ran/jogged 2.65 km without stopping, did a proper cool down and walked around 350m and came back home~~~ lalala! O I just got like appetite suppressants from the doctor in a bid to lose some weight hahaha. Let's see how long this will last too eh? LOL! Anyways, workout is good! puts you in a good mood!! hahaha. plus today is pay day! finally wahahahhah!!! so yes I ish very very happy today! lol.

p.s : KASS!!!!! I LUB YOU MUCHlY!!! WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK FROM COLD BOSTON TO HOT SINGAPORE????

This year is speeding past me... At first January crawled past so painfully slow, jammed packed with nostalgia. Then came February draining me with anxiety and worries. Alas came March speeding past with tears and fears and disapointment aplenty. And SUddenly April crept up upon me before I knew it. This is such a sneaky year haha. And even though it may still be too early to tell, I think 2008 has got to be the suckiest year ever despite fortune tellers saying that it's a good year for the snakes. It has ben quite bad for the first quarter so let's just hope things start to pick up. Sigh, soon May will come and I'll end work and then before you know it June will make an appearance and voila! Half the year is gone...

Anyways, just grabbing the thought off everybody's head. Is the weather weird or what?! Just a few weeks ago it rained hail in Singapore. Hail in sunny Singapore can you imagine?!! And everyday was pouring cats and dogs. And now? IT"S RIDICULOUSLY HOT! PLUS IT POURS AT THE ODDEST TIMINGS EVER!
I HATE IT!!!
It's so maddening... RAH! Soon It'll snow in Singapore and we'll all be doomed. DOOMED I TELL YA! *inserts mad rant* haha.

Today, Pet and I on our way home from work decided to write a series of blogposts on what to do if you think you're stuck in a horror movie. The first one should be up soon so keep your eyes peeled. :D
P.s: hopefully this made up for the previous lacklustre post :D