realised I'm not as tolerant as before. I'm getting too comfortable and I'm being a bitch. maybe this is why i dun really have friends whom i keep close for too long. I'll fight with myself after a while. familiarity breeds contempt. My heart is ugly. It's not clean, not pure. That's why my friendships cannot stay happy for too long. cuz ultimately my bratty self will come out. everything's a facade. everything about me. unhappiness, lies, bitterness creep in after a while. darkness. I hate being caught in the middle. you, you and you. but i've made a promise. I've promised to always be there. and i dun plan to break it no matter how much i have to swallow (from me, or yous)

on a totally unrelated note, LOCC starts tml.