Some things you just can't put into words but you know how it feels like. <---- Pet's qoute of the day

That can be applied to so many things can't it? So many so many things, sometimes you just know yet you can't say.. some people will know some people won't.. and some will never ever know.... then again I'm not making much sense now am I?

Running... why do people like running so much? Maybe it's the feeling of speed. With just your plain raw body working. like you feel free like you can fly if u ran fast enough. Maybe it's the whole feeling of feeling alive, you feel your heart pumping, your blood cruising, the air as it hits your lungs, the way you body slips onto auto pilot as you get into the momentum and your mind starts to wander. The way the wind your way blows your hair back and you feel your muscles throbbing but you just wanna keep going. At first you'll feel a little shagged, then slowly your body strengthened along with your mind and adrenaline kicks in and you feel stronger and as you run you feel happier almost like you can run all your troubles away and you pick up speed faster and faster and faster til you finally drop to the ground. Exhausted but happy and you feel your sweat trickling down to the ground, your body flush red in order to expel all the heat generated and you just lie on the ground..... happy....


I tried to look for that today, after chem extra lesson. I even put on my stinky pe shirt..... i tried to run all my troubles away... I tried to look for the happy exhaustion today... i found nothing but empty screaming.... hollow empty sinking... maybe it's just pms.... or maybe becausse i didn't drive myself hard enough.. I intended to but my body failed me... and I wanted to be alone.... But today no matter where i go.... people always found me..... In the end, I had to go the toilet to wash my face and put on a happy facade as I joined the others. It happened after PE during break too.... but i had my class then... i lub them... always taking my troubles away by being so clueless that even I can be clueless about the lurking troubles in my subconscious. ....... But by the end of the day, I was happy... maybe our emo see saw worked? or maybe because binni and doug are too hiliarous and I laugh everything away.... Doug said he dun wanna live in this place... said he wanna be a politician or something then can change the world.... i told him I didn't want to live at all... he laughed and ask whether I'm adapting his policy of better to die faster.... i laughed...... It's not that I dun appreciate life. I do and I'm grateful for being alive each day. for seeing the people that I see. But i dun mond going. I dun mind going. Maybe it's cowardice... and it's highly likely to be... I can be brave about everything else but not that.......I'm just a coward hiding behind a strong facade who's unable to face up to Life......