I was hurting a while ago.. but as suddenly as it came, it was gone.... why did it even hurt e in the first place... it's supposed to be over... IT IS OVER! so why does it hurt? even if it is for a short while.... I'm not going back.. you can't make me.. i had wanted to keep u as a lovely memory... but i couldn't resist going to your blog and reading.... guess i asked for it in a way. And like the psat you fell ssick.. but this time u're really sick.... but you dun need me there anymore, you have her. She can make you smile, make you laugh, make you worry or even angry.. she is capable of making you change capable of affecting your emotions... capable of everything that I never was. I've always known that it wasn't possible for us.... I've always known and I've finally decided you're of the past and i need someone new but i always knew u'll have a place in my heart no matter what.. i just didn't realize that this part will still ache and beat for u......

You didn't do anything... you never had to.. it was me all along....

whatever, it's over.. wake up... it's over.......


I'm ok now.... i'm just going to lock this up

Just so you know-- Jesse Mccartney

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want you
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]