Pet & I were discussing some stuff on the train on our way home and this idea really got stuck in my head....

You know some guys, they are like the perfect guys. You can like like everything about them, yet you don't like like them. It;s not that you don't want to but you're just unable to. And do note when I say perfect, I meant Perfect like seriously. The perfect height, the broad shoulders, the wonderful and amazing persona... he's the type of guy that you'll be proud to bring homoe to your parents, to show to your friends and feel so lucky just to have him. He's charismatic and funny yet he know when to be serious. He has a high tolerance level and is patient and gentle yet you know that he will protect you no matter what happens. He's boyidh yet manly. He's a perfect gentlemen who don't curse and when you are around him, It's just so comfortable and at ease and you feel so happy. He's like a flawless piece of Jade (pardon the cliche expression). But yet, this flawless piece of jade just doesn't tug at your heartstrings that way and the most you feel for him is endless adoration but not love.

Then along come some guy, He isn't too bad but he's got some gaping flaws about him. he may not always know all the right things to do or say. And he makes you so mad! both angry mad and crazy mad! Suddenly and you have no idea why, you are drawn to him. For this guy, you are falling deeply in love, head over heels crazily in love and you can't pull yourself out. He may make you cry, he might break your heart even.

This guy isn't perfect, far from it even. But you find yourself loving him more and more each passing day. Everytime you try to forget about him, your heart hurts so so much like your about to die from all the pain. yet a simple smile from him can just make the pain go away. With him around, the world seems so big yet so small at the same time. And you wonder if the world is really that big, why is there no place for you to run to when you're trying to forget him? and if the world is that small, why can't he hear the words that your heart is shouting out to him?
You care and worry for him so much so that your world suddenly seems to only have him. His mood affects your mood, when he's happy, you're happy. when he's sad, you feel sad. when he's angry you feel angry for him too. You heart beats ever so fast when you see him and everything around just seem to have that special glow and the funny part is, you just can't wipe that silly smile off your face when you see him. At the same time, your heart aches over the most minute details and his words can either make or break you. And you spend hours days even trying to figure him out, why he do this? why he say those things? what does he like or dislike?

But why? Why this guys and not the first one? Deep down inside you know that if you had fallen in love with the first guy, things will be so much simpler, and your heart won't break and your tears won't fall. That's because you know he will do everything not to hurt you, not to break your heart nor to make you cry. everything he can.... yet, you can't... you just can't. Weird isn't it? how the female mind works sometimes... We know yet we don't understand. Sad isn't it?