don't feel sorry for me... don't let your hearts ache for me... I'm not worth it... the more sympathetic you guys get the harder I'll become and when i finally break... it'll be a hundred times worse because I'm a true Leo, a prideful Leo. I know you guys have seen me cry and break down but i have a feeling if i become so much harder and i break it'll be on a larger scale than you guys have ever seen.. than something i myself have perhaps never seen before... i don't know. I don't want to lose myself... my true genuinely happy self. but i fear it'll be a losing battle. But even so.. dun give me looks of sympathy or hugs of encouragement. i don't need nor want them. Because I have to be strong to grow up and move on. I'm not strong enough yet... But don't worry, if i can't take it, I'll tell you guys about it. for now... i'm gonna deal with it my own way...