Dentistry... screwy

k.. i'm not that disturbed now... all in all my tooth is due for removal on the 29th of december right after i come back form genting... There's also a 5% chance of nerve injury in my lower jaw.. if my nerve is affected, it will leaves my right lower half of the face numb... It is highly possible it will be permenant... I know 5% only there's a 95% chance of no worries.. still this kinda of time jitters u up and i just needed some time to absorb.. I was very gung ho and non-chalent abt the risk in the dental office.. It was all a very sad facade cuz i just can't and will not allow my jitters to show when i'm in front of my mom... this is so typical me.. play down my fears to a cool nonchalent i-don't-care shrug... i'm still a little rattered...

My x-ray showed that my teeth isn't properly aligned.. (will put it up when i get my scanner fixed) remember how i always complain abt the spaces in my teeth and everyone where say no la... normal la... Sucks to break your theory it's not.. and due to that, when i close my mouth, the upper centre line and the lower centre line isn't inline.. it's way off.. this in turn causes my chin to be off centre... grt.. no wonder babies dislike me so much.. now i get it... i know i have a non-symmentrical face.. due to my diff sized eyes.. but now wow.. turns out my chin is not in place too.. so grt.. i must look like a hideous monster to babies.. wonderfull.. that would explain all the crying and looks of fear.. at last an answer to a mystery which has bugged me for years... To correct the problem, I have to get braces done... o crap.. apparently my dad isn't too keen on that... neither am i... but if left uncorrected, the problem may worsen and as i grow well... my face will probably be lopsided.. then surgery have to be done.. the choice lies in their hands la.. they are the ones paying... like i said earlier... seriously sux to be me...

overall... not one of the better days i could have had... but screwy... what will come wil come.. i'm not that afraid of the operation itself, it's the injection of the anathestic(excuse the typo.. i'm lazy to check) that i hate.. how can something which is supposed to stop your pain, hurt so bad? seriously... i remebered my first anathestic shot.. god that hurt... I was lying on the cold surgeon table.. everything around you was so quiet u can actually hear the doors opeening and shutting.. then came the shot.. nothing i have ever taken felt like it.. it was sheer agony and pain and torture... Trust me... I'm one of the few girls who can look at the nurse put a needle into me without even flinching... worse yet they seperate it into 3 portions.. i mean i rather it hurt badly once, then to have the same f**king pain 3 times... i cried like mad... acc. to my parents, they could hear my howling and cries from outside the surgery room.. they thought i was dying... it seemed that way acc. to my cries... I felt like i was dying too.. and it leaves an awful after taste in your mouth... yuck.. i can almost taste it in my mouth again.... 2ndly.. the aftermaths annoy me.. having your tooth surgically removed... you will have a bloody taste in your mouth for 2 to 3 weeks.. fine with me actually, if not for my love of the sun, I could have sworn i was at least half vampiric... the brushing of your teeth will be a big pain.. you can't rinse your mouth constanly nor vigoursly if not blood mite start squirting out again... your tongue can't keep coming into contact with it as the blood clot might become dislodge and again the UNSTOPPABLE bleeding.. real sweet i tell ya... and a lot more la but i can't really remeber.. i'm sure i will after the 29th... Actually, i think i'll ask the doc whether i can keep a portion of my tooth.. for keepsakes.. it will only be a portion cuz they have to cut up the tooth in several portions before removing it.. and o yea how can i forget swelling and bruising of my face.. whoopee.. i'll go to the first few days of my jc life looking like i just came out the worse of a huge gang fight.... so delightful... I wld dance in happiness but i can't so let's leave it....

on another note, tml i'm going with yvonne to my aunt's place to bai shi xue yi.. hahah... bake gingerbread man! hhopefully things will be a-okay... lalala~o well.. signing off now with my usual i tink i'll go rot to my untimely death spirit! bye...